Unfortunately I’m still in a really crappy headspace today. This is due to many little or trifling things that, in the grand scheme of things, could be considered mere annoyances but, put together all at once, are really affecting my mental health. In a moment of absolute insanity, I agreed to serve as secretary for our homeowner association board. I’m now learning,too late, what a thankless job this is. Lots and lots of stuff is being thrown at me at once, a lot of which I can’t deal with immediately because of #A11Y issues. They don’t seem to grasp the A11Y concept. Our monthly board meeting is tonight, needless to say I’m not looking forward to it. Another example: Recently I started joining the #BITS chats on the weekend. Those who know know. I thought that might be a good way to reach out to others and extend my circle. Last night, I dialed in, and for about five minutes, I was completely ignored. I have the same problem there that I have in big rooms with a lot of people talking at once, where I have no idea when to jump in, and I usually guess wrong. The stress of this is one of the rare times that my childhood stutter rears its ugly head. I dialed in later, and for reasons unknown I was put on mute. I couldn’t unmute, so I left. To be fair, I know none of this is personal or directed at me in any way. But when your head is messed up you get some stupid messages. Anyway, that’s where I’m at today.
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