CIRCLE WITH A DOT

I keep feeling all the surgery pain in my stomach and realizing that theres only my intestines and bladder in there and I'm so at peace. Like I'm not going to be taken down by something I never wanted or completely owned anyway. It feels like I finally got rid of a tumor that was ruining my health.

I think humanity began it's descent when we normalized using something as beautifying and unusable as liquid eyeliner.

This is real and it's happening and it's real and it's happening to me

@damonology Best of luck and may you have a speedy and safe recovery 🫂

@damonology OMG i was having horrible cramps for 2 weeks before my surgery and i just had to go with it. i was working in a warehouse and i would have to stop every ten minutes just to retch a bit and groan in pain.

I think I'll have I Would Hate Me Too by TX2 play in the background of the opening montage in the movie about my life. Maybe I can even convince Evan Thomas to play me, that would be perfect.

@damonology 🫂

@damonology you absolute legend!!

This is your daily reminder that a number on a scale is meaningless because how am I the heaviest I've ever been but also fitting into my smallest pair of pants even better than when I bought them?

@damonology oh my god that's embarrassing

I had been on the fence about telling my family because theyre very...ex-catholic white centrist capitalist, to put it nicely. I decided I'd give them a chance and told my mother today: Me: oh yeah, I actually can't go back to work yet because I have surgery next week. Mom: surgery!?Me: yes, I'm getting a hysterectomy Mom: /ew, why?/Me: because I-- Mom: a hysterectomy?! Me: yes, because- Mom: /that's gross, ew why. Hehe, no I'm kidding *hard subject change, never brought up again*/ And I have to say, the response I've been getting from cis women is interesting. They almost always know I'm a trans man, and it seems in the moment that I tell them, they completely forget that, shocked at my betrayal of (white) womanhood. (As if I didnt already do that by injecting T every 5 days for a year, but I digress)I honestly expected more solidarity from cis women, and more awkwardness from cis men. Admittedly, cis men are always awkward because I exist, but that's a whole other thing. Idk its just interesting. Everyone's pro reproductive rights until you make a permanent decision I guess. It's very telling. The one good thing about the social stresses of being trans is that you find out who actually supports you.

@emily_rugburn I'm getting one taken out. Everyone kept giving me conflicting advice on whether it was safe to not have them if I'm going to be take testosterone forever sooo I figured I'd keep one anyway. Somewhat annoyed because I did finally learn that it is safe to get them both removed if I'm taking T buuut I feel it's way too close to the surgery date to change the plan and I guess it's good to have an emergency hormone anyway.

[Hissing intensifies]

I guess my valentines gift to myself this year is going to be surgically removing a major organ. I'm so thoughtful 🥰

*wistful sigh*

My dumb ass has been avoiding iron because I read that T can cause you to overproduce blood cells also my levels have been consistently low so like "yikes what if more iron causes a period." Now I'm reading that it can also cause anemia and I wonder if that's why I'm having heart palpitations and my chest is sore frequently and I'm so lethargic and slightly depressed and overwhelmed and yellow... Anyway don't let the brain worms getcha and take your vitamins, kids.

@damonology i dont think its very common but ive definitely read about uterus transplants

I had a dream I won a big lifted truck with giant wheels, now I need a big lifted truck with giant wheels.