Does anyone have a screepcap or link saved of the interaction about a decade ago when a trans girl on reddit asked an adult cis man how often he thought about being a girl and his answer was something like "I dont think ive ever thought about that".
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@glassblowerscat @siege This.
That was the exact point I realized, shit, I’m trans. I’d been skating around it, but never seeing it for what it truly was: gender dysphoria.@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege If someone had asked me the button question when I was a child I would have smashed it to bits from hitting it so much. I'm one of the rare ones that seemed like I always knew but never had the courage to take the leap.
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@siege I know at least one such cryptid, and she's amazing. The self-assuredness that takes at such a young age is beyond the reach of most.
Myself I'm an unholy combination of 2 and 3. I voiced my truth to myself at 17 years old, concluded it unactionable, and then pushed for some other explanation for the next fifteen years. (And then still didn't do anything concrete for another half decade).
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@siege I know at least one such cryptid, and she's amazing. The self-assuredness that takes at such a young age is beyond the reach of most.
Myself I'm an unholy combination of 2 and 3. I voiced my truth to myself at 17 years old, concluded it unactionable, and then pushed for some other explanation for the next fifteen years. (And then still didn't do anything concrete for another half decade).
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@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege If someone had asked me the button question when I was a child I would have smashed it to bits from hitting it so much. I'm one of the rare ones that seemed like I always knew but never had the courage to take the leap.
@glassblowerscat @AppleFangirl @siege I’m not sure which would be easier to deal with tbh.
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@eruonna @Tattie @siege We're all kind of in a cohort.
I can look back and see times where the truth came close, but the cultural lack of information about trans guys and especially nonbinary people just...prevented the inner sentiment from taking conscious shape.
And later on, at 25 and 29, I came close but external events interrupted the introspection that was leading me there.
I'm glad I've been able to identify some moments when I almost realized. It takes away the "how did I not ever know?" bewilderment that I felt for a long time, after starting to transition. And heck, I'm just glad I figured it out at all! I owe a lot to the kids on the internet. -
@glassblowerscat @AppleFangirl @siege I’m not sure which would be easier to deal with tbh.
@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege All I know is repressing that and internalizing it for five decades almost killed me a few times.
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@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege All I know is repressing that and internalizing it for five decades almost killed me a few times.
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@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege Thanks. 🫂 At least I'm finally on my way. And feeling a whole lot better mentally as well. Better late than never.
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@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege Thanks. 🫂 At least I'm finally on my way. And feeling a whole lot better mentally as well. Better late than never.
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It’s amazing how different it feels to simply be yourself around safe, loving people. I had no idea how grating it was to force myself into “boy mode” all these years. -
@siege @valentine there is a fourth group which is small but may hopefully get bigger: people who were told all their lives, by at least some of the people around them, that they are the ones who ultimately know their own gender, that being trans is an actual possibility for them. I know some kids like that.
It seems a little like the tragectory that sexuality has taken (and some of this will likely depend on where you are). Nowadays, there are a lot more kids who grow up knowing that they might be gay, that they can just pay attention to their own feelings of attraction. It's not perfect; those kids are still moving through a highly heteronormative world. But it is easier than it was thirty years ago.
@eruonna @siege I totally agree.
I'd only add that I would love to see an increase in discourse about the different ways that gay attraction can feel from straight attraction when you're young. Queer attraction is not just about who it's aimed at -- it's a difference in vibe altogether.
Essentially, how being attracted to guys can often feel really different when you're also a guy, than attraction to guys feels when you're a girl.
That shit would have REALLY helped me out when I was going through puberty, because I knew *for sure* that I was attracted to guys. It would have helped to understand that I was attracted to them in a boy-way.
It's hard to parse out exactly what that means, and I think some people would push back if they thought the description of it took anything away from the ways women could be attracted to men.
But like, I think everyone would accept that being attracted to women is a different sentiment for a lesbian than it is for a straight man. It is qualitatively different. The same goes for a little gay boy in a girl's body, vs. a little straight girl.
My sexual orientation was set -- it was just mis-labeled due to my looking like a girl, and the intensity of it was one of the things that kept me assuming I was a straight woman for a tragicomically long time.
I hope that gay and lesbian trans people can start putting their early experiences out there, so that pre-transition kids can see what they vibe with, and gain some validation from. -
@valentine @siege The GDB was kind of that for me, and I've seen a few other lists floating around (mostly transfem focused, though I don't know if that is a tendency for which lists exist or just my own identity steering what I see).
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It’s amazing how different it feels to simply be yourself around safe, loving people. I had no idea how grating it was to force myself into “boy mode” all these years.@jaye @siege @glassblowerscat Yeah boy mode sucks.
Happy you found safe and loving people. 
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@valentine @siege The Gender Dysphoria Bible
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@valentine @siege The Gender Dysphoria Bible
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@eruonna @siege I totally agree.
I'd only add that I would love to see an increase in discourse about the different ways that gay attraction can feel from straight attraction when you're young. Queer attraction is not just about who it's aimed at -- it's a difference in vibe altogether.
Essentially, how being attracted to guys can often feel really different when you're also a guy, than attraction to guys feels when you're a girl.
That shit would have REALLY helped me out when I was going through puberty, because I knew *for sure* that I was attracted to guys. It would have helped to understand that I was attracted to them in a boy-way.
It's hard to parse out exactly what that means, and I think some people would push back if they thought the description of it took anything away from the ways women could be attracted to men.
But like, I think everyone would accept that being attracted to women is a different sentiment for a lesbian than it is for a straight man. It is qualitatively different. The same goes for a little gay boy in a girl's body, vs. a little straight girl.
My sexual orientation was set -- it was just mis-labeled due to my looking like a girl, and the intensity of it was one of the things that kept me assuming I was a straight woman for a tragicomically long time.
I hope that gay and lesbian trans people can start putting their early experiences out there, so that pre-transition kids can see what they vibe with, and gain some validation from.Oh yeah, as soon as I started trying to date as a lesbian, everything made so much more sense to me
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Oh yeah, as soon as I started trying to date as a lesbian, everything made so much more sense to me
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@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege All I know is repressing that and internalizing it for five decades almost killed me a few times.
@AppleFangirl @jaye @glassblowerscat @siege
I have not thought about repressing or internalizing, but the ‘almost killed me’ has 1
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@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege All I know is repressing that and internalizing it for five decades almost killed me a few times.
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@glassblowerscat @jaye @siege Thanks.
️ I just wonder how many people out there are going through what I went through for years on end but will suffer in silence due to fear or other reasons.
