CIRCLE WITH A DOT

@kasica Thanks! This understanding has required hundreds or more likely thousands of hours of processing over the past three years, having my gender as autistic special interest, several false leads, misunderstandings, and struggle with gender anxiety, and recently a wonderful therapist pushing me to the right direction. And I can't be sure if there are still more revelations to come! Feels pretty good description for the moment though.

I wish you'll find a sufficient level of understanding on your part

More gender thoughts from last week. The realization that there is a fluid core to my gender running beneath the complex meant that the two-dimensional schemata of my gender I've drawn and revised several times didn't work any longer. Following the scientific principle that a new theory should explain all of the details the old theory does plus some extra, I started to process this.

This includes the need of no medical transition, feminine energy that seems to be on another level than the more tangible gender feelings, said tangible gender feelings, fluid core, and me being more often on the genderless side than I initially thought. Once I remembered the meme about foxes being cat software running on dog hardware, it clicked. This was a great metaphor.

So, my current understanding of my gender:
I have masculine hardware with Autigender brand fluid core, running a feminine OS with agender idle processes. It can run several pieces of software, with at least maverique, demiboy, and neutrois installed out of the box.

#NonBinary #GenderFluid #AutiGender #ActuallyAutistic