I just can't with people sometimes
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I don't "identify as" anything.
Other people might "identify as" whatever they want. That's fine.As for me though? I'm not "identifying as" a woman. I am one. I know it in my heart to be the truth, and I have always known it this way. The thought of growing up to be an old man is literally something that viscerally made me miserable. The thought of living as a male is my worst horror, my greatest fear. Having my body stolen from me, living as the man who isn't there.
And doing the opposite just feels natural to me, now that I've let my guard down. I could not imagine me in my distant future even as a kid being anything other than an old lady. I feel in my transition that I'm leaving where I dropped off at puberty. Like I have the chance to correct the record and make things right, so I'm not a walking Chappel Roan song for all eternity
This wasn't some woke cultural imposition. This wasn't some thing I did because I decided "why not".
I am transitioning because I need to in order to stay a sane individual. I need to "transition" (the lingo society uses) because I need my inside to match my outside. The alternative is a mental death.
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This wasn't some woke cultural imposition. This wasn't some thing I did because I decided "why not".
I am transitioning because I need to in order to stay a sane individual. I need to "transition" (the lingo society uses) because I need my inside to match my outside. The alternative is a mental death.
The cultural performance of gender is something that I'm consciously doing because I like the femme style. I like it because it emphasizes the parts of me I want to emphasize within a social context.
But when you strip it all down, I would be trans without the social construction of gender. It's a core part of my brain functioning, independent of any outside influence. I need my body to be at least somewhat female* because my brain structure demands it. In the same way I don't always focus good because of my ADHD. I'm not *choosing* to be this way, my dopamine circuits are just wonky
* I'm nb but I heavily lean in one direction
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The cultural performance of gender is something that I'm consciously doing because I like the femme style. I like it because it emphasizes the parts of me I want to emphasize within a social context.
But when you strip it all down, I would be trans without the social construction of gender. It's a core part of my brain functioning, independent of any outside influence. I need my body to be at least somewhat female* because my brain structure demands it. In the same way I don't always focus good because of my ADHD. I'm not *choosing* to be this way, my dopamine circuits are just wonky
* I'm nb but I heavily lean in one direction
This is a personal rant and I don't want anyone to go into my replies to police my language. For the love of God.
Just preemptively
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This is a personal rant and I don't want anyone to go into my replies to police my language. For the love of God.
Just preemptively
I'm just fed up.
I just want to be one of the girls.
I don't want people to be weird about it.
I don't want people to think I'm "a biological dude" who "identifies as" whatever.I want people to actually fucking get it and not other me or treat me as anything less than what I am.
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I'm just fed up.
I just want to be one of the girls.
I don't want people to be weird about it.
I don't want people to think I'm "a biological dude" who "identifies as" whatever.I want people to actually fucking get it and not other me or treat me as anything less than what I am.
I'm done.
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I don't "identify as" anything.
Other people might "identify as" whatever they want. That's fine.As for me though? I'm not "identifying as" a woman. I am one. I know it in my heart to be the truth, and I have always known it this way. The thought of growing up to be an old man is literally something that viscerally made me miserable. The thought of living as a male is my worst horror, my greatest fear. Having my body stolen from me, living as the man who isn't there.
And doing the opposite just feels natural to me, now that I've let my guard down. I could not imagine me in my distant future even as a kid being anything other than an old lady. I feel in my transition that I'm leaving where I dropped off at puberty. Like I have the chance to correct the record and make things right, so I'm not a walking Chappel Roan song for all eternity
@burnoutqueen I find this interesting. I 'identify' as a brain in a male body. My brain, my soul if you will, is not male or female, it is just a separate being. I don't hold any identify as a male. That is just the meat bag that carries my brain around. It's like I would identify as a Ford if that was what car I got into. Or if I insisted I was a Ford if I was in a Pontiac.
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@Air_Quotes_Comedian this is a joke right
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@Air_Quotes_Comedian @burnoutqueen 1st belly laugh of the night. Thank you.
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@burnoutqueen I find this interesting. I 'identify' as a brain in a male body. My brain, my soul if you will, is not male or female, it is just a separate being. I don't hold any identify as a male. That is just the meat bag that carries my brain around. It's like I would identify as a Ford if that was what car I got into. Or if I insisted I was a Ford if I was in a Pontiac.
@burnoutqueen To be clear, I probably more closely identify with what your view of life is than those hyper male/female chads and karens that have to pretend to be ultra alpha males/females. Those folks are truly fucked up. The Tate brothers, or the Trad Wives of the world.
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@burnoutqueen To be clear, I probably more closely identify with what your view of life is than those hyper male/female chads and karens that have to pretend to be ultra alpha males/females. Those folks are truly fucked up. The Tate brothers, or the Trad Wives of the world.
@burnoutqueen You have stopped and thought about it. NOT something those hyper sexist idiots have done, at least I can't imagine them doing it...
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