Is anyone doing okay anymore?

[len@nyan.network]

@eniko aaah?

[evs@social.lol]

@eniko I went with other because objectively I am doing ok, but there has been a ton of anxiety lately and I'll probably need to up my lexapro

That disconnect between "things are stable in my life" and the internal unease from brain chemistry being a jerk makes it tough... Especially when it seems to vacillate between internal alarm bells and absolutely nothing wrong

[lezliz@mas.to]

@eniko I have set the bar pretty low for myself, but I'd like to think that I'm doing okay as long as I can pay the rent, which thankfully is the case at the moment.

[pawv@tech.lgbt]

@eniko Emotionally yeah. Financially ... ️

[dandelion@stormwaltz.net]

@eniko

When the work year began on Jan 5, I had one full time and one part time game dev job.

As of end of day today, I'm unemployed.

[eniko@mastodon.gamedev.place]

@Dandelion ugh i'm sorry

[eniko@mastodon.gamedev.place]

@vavakado i think maybe just barely yes

[srazkvt@tech.lgbt]

@eniko shit's fucked

[familiaralien@plush.city]

@eniko I'm not doing ok but to be fair I've been in state of not okayness for pretty much my entire life at this point. If it helps though I'm not doing usually bad compared to average so that's as close to "okay" as it gets for me.

[springogeek@mastodon.gamedev.place]

@eniko I oscillate between ok and not ok, currently in the not category, but hopefully it doesn't last long.

[kaijucat@mastodon.social]

@eniko I may not be thriving, but I am surviving

[micahilbery@mstdn.social]

@eniko not really, but I keep trying.

[oblomov@sociale.network]

@eniko I'm doing OK financially but I wish the world was a better place and I could help out more, so I marked it as Other

[yon@sakurajima.moe]

@eniko I wasn’t doing well 10 years ago, since then everything has gotten worse:/

[eryops@dice.camp]

@eniko I answered Other since the way your question is phrased, assumes at some point I was doing okay, which I'm not sure was ever the case.

[9th_sage@indiepocalypse.social]

@eniko I'm honestly not sure on a day to day basis. Trying to be as okay as I can be given....*gestures to everything*

[morten_skaaning@mastodon.gamedev.place]

@eniko "What do you mean, "bad"?
Dr. Egon Spengler: Try to imagine all life as you know it stopping instantaneously and every molecule in your body exploding at the speed of light."

[jmelesky@tinylad.social]

@eniko@mastodon.gamedev.place Other: I'm doing okay sometimes, but in bursts of decreasing size.

[moss@kind.social]

@eniko follow up question:

If you said you were doing okay, did you say that because you think you’re doing better than other ppl?
Maybe therefore you “don’t have a right to complain”? Or you’re scared to admit you aren’t ok?

[eedly@mindly.social]

@moss I only meant to check the first one. Very perceptive follow up, though. Not ok, but keeping things together for the next ten seconds. And then the next ten seconds. And then...

@eniko