Well, if it's long COVID awareness day, I'll add my ten cents.
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@oftencalledcathy yeah I hate everyone. I went forty seven years of my life always suspecting but never knowing the nature of my fellow man. But boy do I now. Do I ever. They're weak. Appallingly so. The emotional immaturity is a disease. I guess all the religion should have tipped me off.
I may be a bag of malfunctioning meat, but my iron will is a confirmed level 100. I used to get imposter syndrome. I laugh at the notion now.
@lhgmk2 wishing you, and your lovely cats, all the best
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To those still genuinely sentient reading this. Who can listen.
Thanks for being there. I wouldn't want to be the last sane man on earth.
Ever notice it's the sick that do the most for other sick people?
Apologies for the TMI, my middle name should be Frank. But nothing leads to denial like pearl clutching, and why should I be the only one dealing with how awful goodness is?
I shall now hobble away against the wind. Somebody light the lighter fluid hero insignia on the ground for me. I can't afford to lose a Zippo and I'm not bending down. Nobody wants to see or hear that.
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@lhgmk2 wishing you, and your lovely cats, all the best
@oftencalledcathy Thank you, my pretty babies appreciate it.
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Apologies for the TMI, my middle name should be Frank. But nothing leads to denial like pearl clutching, and why should I be the only one dealing with how awful goodness is?
I shall now hobble away against the wind. Somebody light the lighter fluid hero insignia on the ground for me. I can't afford to lose a Zippo and I'm not bending down. Nobody wants to see or hear that.
@lhgmk2 if more folks were more frank about how god awful the TMI of it all is, and the daily bodily horror, maybe the reality of the risk would actually hit home and folks would take the risk more seriously. Not a lot is more frightening to many people than losing this much dignity. I really miss being able to just take a shower. So, so much.
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@lhgmk2 if more folks were more frank about how god awful the TMI of it all is, and the daily bodily horror, maybe the reality of the risk would actually hit home and folks would take the risk more seriously. Not a lot is more frightening to many people than losing this much dignity. I really miss being able to just take a shower. So, so much.
@secretsloth you're right, it is actual daily body horror, and you don't need to watch videodrome or existenz to get it.
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@treleanor coo, get you with your luxury items.
Yeah, all apnea sucks. I do sympathise.I recorded myself to see how bad it was, I don't even snore. My body just forgets to use my nose when allergies hit in my sleep and my mouth doesn't open. I just choke. My autonomous functions are broken. I now have to make sure my nose can always work and take meds to keep it open. Ridiculous situation.
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@treleanor I had to come off pills to help me sleep a while back because I had flu, and I couldn't afford deep sleep in case I suffocated. This shit genuinely sucks.
I'm genuinely a bit scared of it, but it's now just instinctive fear, like of drowning, because after three years of it, it's got me miserable bored with it.
People wonder why I get moody
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@treleanor I had to come off pills to help me sleep a while back because I had flu, and I couldn't afford deep sleep in case I suffocated. This shit genuinely sucks.
I'm genuinely a bit scared of it, but it's now just instinctive fear, like of drowning, because after three years of it, it's got me miserable bored with it.
People wonder why I get moody
@treleanor I can't sleep near a time I've eaten because my sinuses swell for about two hours. I used to like eating and napping.
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@secretsloth you're right, it is actual daily body horror, and you don't need to watch videodrome or existenz to get it.
@lhgmk2 and they don't know why, or what is or isn't actually long covid related. Things come and go and that makes doctors doubt us. But then again, I've just had a humdinger of a crash that like... I suspect something secondary is probably involved, but I didn't realize, because I thought it was just another long covid problem. And it could be! Who knows! Will the docs care? Who knows. Can they find out without killing me? Spin the wheel. Because I'm at the limit of what I can figure out.
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@lhgmk2 and they don't know why, or what is or isn't actually long covid related. Things come and go and that makes doctors doubt us. But then again, I've just had a humdinger of a crash that like... I suspect something secondary is probably involved, but I didn't realize, because I thought it was just another long covid problem. And it could be! Who knows! Will the docs care? Who knows. Can they find out without killing me? Spin the wheel. Because I'm at the limit of what I can figure out.
@lhgmk2 and there we have the flipside of the horror coin. We don't have the ability to leave these questions to out doctors because *they don't know,* even if they do listen. We have to figure this out ourselves, like, in our own bodies and also as a community, because doctors just seem to have thrown up their hands about it. And that. Just. Sucks. Even doctors aren't their own doctors. Nobody would want to be. But here we are. Horror upon horror upon horror.
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