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Nonplussed

1. Unsure how to act or respond; bewildered, perplexed.

2. (US informal nonstandard) The complete opposite of the meaning of Nonplussed.

@CharlotteEowyn for sure

@moiety i love that no matter how many years go by, we are still the same shape. No amount of trans awareness can compete with the power of self denial

@glowtayto i am quietly plotting a freaky-friday marathon on my discord movie night crew.

All films where people swap bodies or create a version of themselves in another body (preferably gender swapping) ala Virtual Sexuality

@glowtayto hey look, i cant judge, i managed to have a whole heart to heart conversation with one of my closest friends where i came out as trans to them. And then a week later I realised i was trans.

@JoscelynTransient like any warm blooded man i too yearn to be dead so i can live again as a cute girly girl uwu

this was just brought to my attention so im including it for any cis people who have read any of this and are curious what sort of shape the people im talking about are in:

@EmilyEnough also just read the reddit post and thank god i wasnt drinking anything or my monitor would be ruined.

HILARIOUS on point, no notes, 10/10 definitely a cis man.

@EmilyEnough no! i actually try to wait a few days between the original post going up online somewhere and talking about it here.

it is just that we're all such basic bitches that its groundhog day everyday

@agturcz @JoscelynTransient Hey, hey Matrix, i will accept this simulated reality, i will not peak behind any curtains, i just need you give me this one delicious steak thing

@agturcz @JoscelynTransient yeah, i do love to when i can sneak in a line of "cis guys dont ever make wishes to imagined beings / gods / demons / fairy godmothers / birthday cake candles to wake up as a woman, nor do they ever try to figure out how to ensure they have a dream where they turn into a woman either"

@DuchessOfSnork I have it on good opinion from a trans elder that i respect that we all are. We are all Baphomet.

@valentine its those who use femboy as just the new term for trap,

thats where its like ah yes, tale old as time, every generation thinks just be young, hot and in denial forever is the solution to being trans.

@valentine yes, 100% with you.

like on the face of it, i love that femboy exists as a (sometimes positive) term now. Because growing up the term for that space which i too inhabited, was crossdresser.

exact same discomfort that many i speak to in the "questioning" stage who use that label, if i speak with them in DMs enough the reality that emerges is to them femboy = hot and trans woman = deluded old disgusting

@valentine yeah the "femboys exist, boys can just want to be girls, that doesnt make them trans" argument.

@valentine and yeah, the 3 group to me is what you're describing with that "ever vigilance of it all evaporating and then everyone would KNOW (i dont even know what they would know because i cant admit to myself what is inside the box)" of policing self.

@valentine 2 continued: figures it out in early teen years, normally has terrible time trying to negotiate situation with parents, posts always tend to include crying in showers.

3. those who accept what they're told by parents/teachers, that they are their agab, and therefore self learn to crush any internal gender need feelings and build a cage around it, cage becomes more complex as life continues, puberty leads to more intense crushing of needs, mental health cracks begin from closet life

@valentine yeah, like i tend to think of three general categories of trans people coming to realisation:

1. those who boldly as a child walkup to their parents and say "Hey actually im X" - this to me is like a cryptid. I cannot fathom magical formulation exists that allows the trans kid to take everything theyve been told by parents/teachers/peers and say No you're all wrong.

2. those who pubertal changes are so stark it crushes them so heavily that they figure it out.

also theres all the stuff you cant convey they're not yet understanding like 3 hours after you accept yourself (oh ive always wanted this more than anything and the only person stopping me was myself), 3 days in (i was never a guy and had desperately tried to build an idea of my very-not-a-guy experience as a normal guy experience), and then 3 years in (this isnt a small part of me, this is a fundamental core thing that connects to almost every choice and part of me and has for all my life)

eg: closeted trans girl who will state "im not sure if im trans, i dont hate being a guy, im not sure if i want to be a woman but its an idea that comes up sometimes"

translation: I would make a pact with an unholy demon to be turned into a girl right now, please, are you an unholy demon? please tell me you are