@JenJen You would still bring beauty and joy to the world without the spice but that would be like asking a chef for a vindaloo without the heat.
If you have to do it for financial reasons, no one would blame you. We all have to do things we don’t want to do to survive.
A life of misery is no life at all. You and the world need your art to be what your brain needs it to be, not what some asshole in a suit says it should be.
Cry havoc! And let let slip the dicks of want!