traumatized trans girls are like "I'm going to start practicing self confidence!", say one nice thing about themselves, and immediately backtrack on it because it sounds arrogant to them

[ykantrachelread@social.treehouse.systems]

@rowan.monster I know it's something others have probably expressed before lol. it's not like I'm particularly unique in that regard

[dhfir@suya.place]

@YKantRachelRead the trick here is to accept that arrognce is good actually.

[ykantrachelread@social.treehouse.systems]

@rowan.monster okay, the level of CPTSD Brain I'm operating on had me interpreting your previous post as lighthearted sarcasm

and also. weh. thank you ️

[ykantrachelread@social.treehouse.systems]

@dhfir whenever I think about that, my brain goes to: "no, actually, displaying any amount of arrogance would justify everything my abusers ever said about me being The Real Bad/Abusive/Shitty One in the relationship. it'd mean I was projecting my own shittiness on to them all along."

[sinvega@mas.to]

@YKantRachelRead go bigger!

"I'm okay actually"

vs

GODS TREMBLE IN MY SHADOW

[vantiss@social.treehouse.systems]

@rowan.monster @YKantRachelRead
good job Rowan, the perfect compliment trap

[ykantrachelread@social.treehouse.systems]

@vantiss @rowan.monster [exaggerated pouty face]

[jackie@social.linux.pizza]

@YKantRachelRead
I'm pretty neato
*gets cancelled for autoneatophilia*

[ykantrachelread@social.treehouse.systems]

@jackie [blanchard voice] peak ANP behavior, really

[steff@soc.femme.cat]

@YKantRachelRead@social.treehouse.systems @jackie@social.linux.pizza Accepting that we're not more fucked up, degenerate, or worthy of love then others feels like an evergreen struggle. Of course, acknowledging this is male socialization because ego and self-confidence are not fem domains. And yet, I will remind you, anyway, you are not fucked up, not more degenerate (then some of us) and definitely worthy of love.