@pronounshe It sounds like you know your way around maintaining a car but unless the temp is below zero, needing a jump means your car battery is probably toast (or, worse, the alternator).
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@pronounshe ah I see!
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An anxiety attack is starting. I don't understand at all how I'm going to navigate being #unhoused. I need to get some things for camping tonight, but I can only do one item at a time, one stop at a time because I'm getting super overwhelmed each time I go in to a store.v
And I keep forgetting things. I set something down and I forget where I set it 10 seconds later. I've learned to put things away immediately after using them because that's the only way to be sure I don't forget where something is. So that means packing and unpacking something multiple times to minimize misplacing it so I don't spend sometimes half an hour trying to find it.
It's bad and I'm scared.
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An anxiety attack is starting. I don't understand at all how I'm going to navigate being #unhoused. I need to get some things for camping tonight, but I can only do one item at a time, one stop at a time because I'm getting super overwhelmed each time I go in to a store.v
And I keep forgetting things. I set something down and I forget where I set it 10 seconds later. I've learned to put things away immediately after using them because that's the only way to be sure I don't forget where something is. So that means packing and unpacking something multiple times to minimize misplacing it so I don't spend sometimes half an hour trying to find it.
It's bad and I'm scared.
Just lost a full post. Gonna try to recreate it.
Nothing positive to post today. And I'm lucky enough to have a #SocialSecurity benefit. I can't imagine not having even that. And, of course, I still constantly mask when I go in to any business. With rare exception, I'm the only one that does.
I understand why #unhoused people mentally fall apart. The constant stress. The constant worrying about the car breaking. Wondering where I'm going to sleep tonight. The worrying about where I'm going to park until I have to find a place to sleep. Where do I charge my electronics? I can use my inverter while driving, but the takes gas and adds wear to the car.
I attempted to go to what I think is the central library in Spokane the other day. They charge for parking with a two hour limit.
Fortunately, I have food today.
Everywhere I go requires driving, which only hastens the breakdown of any one of the car's systems. I can stay at the campground again, but it cuts in to the ninety day per calendar year limit at state parks here.
I don't know what to do. I can still go back to my friends' house until April, but I need to prepare for the eventuality of being unhoused.
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Just lost a full post. Gonna try to recreate it.
Nothing positive to post today. And I'm lucky enough to have a #SocialSecurity benefit. I can't imagine not having even that. And, of course, I still constantly mask when I go in to any business. With rare exception, I'm the only one that does.
I understand why #unhoused people mentally fall apart. The constant stress. The constant worrying about the car breaking. Wondering where I'm going to sleep tonight. The worrying about where I'm going to park until I have to find a place to sleep. Where do I charge my electronics? I can use my inverter while driving, but the takes gas and adds wear to the car.
I attempted to go to what I think is the central library in Spokane the other day. They charge for parking with a two hour limit.
Fortunately, I have food today.
Everywhere I go requires driving, which only hastens the breakdown of any one of the car's systems. I can stay at the campground again, but it cuts in to the ninety day per calendar year limit at state parks here.
I don't know what to do. I can still go back to my friends' house until April, but I need to prepare for the eventuality of being unhoused.
If the car breaks down, I lose everything in the #car because I can't physically carry it all. I've been staying in my car for the last few days to learn what I do and do not need.
I'm hoping I can take off on my bike for a while in April, if my body lets me. I know how to pack for a bike tour, but car living is a very different thing that I've never had to contemplate.
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If the car breaks down, I lose everything in the #car because I can't physically carry it all. I've been staying in my car for the last few days to learn what I do and do not need.
I'm hoping I can take off on my bike for a while in April, if my body lets me. I know how to pack for a bike tour, but car living is a very different thing that I've never had to contemplate.
I've been thinking about all the things that led to this, and everything has been filtered through physical disability, PTSD, anxiety, and depression.
I don't know how to dig my way out of this. I am going to be unhoused, and therefore, criminalized.
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I've been thinking about all the things that led to this, and everything has been filtered through physical disability, PTSD, anxiety, and depression.
I don't know how to dig my way out of this. I am going to be unhoused, and therefore, criminalized.
I had a home and life I'd constructed from nothing before my current situation. I built a life and community and had plans for the future.
I'm not where I'm at now because I did anything wrong to precipitate this. And no, I am not over this. It's breaking me.
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I had a home and life I'd constructed from nothing before my current situation. I built a life and community and had plans for the future.
I'm not where I'm at now because I did anything wrong to precipitate this. And no, I am not over this. It's breaking me.
I have no purpose.
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I have no purpose.
I need a home while I wait for #housing.
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I had a home and life I'd constructed from nothing before my current situation. I built a life and community and had plans for the future.
I'm not where I'm at now because I did anything wrong to precipitate this. And no, I am not over this. It's breaking me.
The friends I've been staying with have asked that I leave their house during the day. I've been leaving entry morning for the last couple of weeks. So I'm at a park and laying in the back of the car. This has been incurring a lot of unanticipated spending.
My anxiety has been really bad as a result. They seem to expect leaving the house will spur me to find odd jobs around town. It already takes all my energy to keep myself together. And I fail at that daily. I just don't have the extra emotional bandwidth to do anything else, and having to leave the house just makes it worse.
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The friends I've been staying with have asked that I leave their house during the day. I've been leaving entry morning for the last couple of weeks. So I'm at a park and laying in the back of the car. This has been incurring a lot of unanticipated spending.
My anxiety has been really bad as a result. They seem to expect leaving the house will spur me to find odd jobs around town. It already takes all my energy to keep myself together. And I fail at that daily. I just don't have the extra emotional bandwidth to do anything else, and having to leave the house just makes it worse.
I've been having emotional breakdowns daily. I didn't sleep very well at all last night because I'm so stressed out. I'm heading to the west side of the state on Friday and I'm scared about anything happening to my car. It's going to be the only "home" I have for a while. I won't have anything if it dies.
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