the thought of an impending tactical nuclear strike is really throwing me right now.

[insidertreat@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 same. I've barely made any progress today or gotten much done. Just kinda existing

[cr0w@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 Keep on it though. You / we need to stay healthy more now than ever. At least you know there are other people here dealing with similar shit to lean on.

[da_667@infosec.exchange]

@rootwyrm @cR0w I'm right there with you right now. I just got out of the hospital the second time in two years, my dog is injured. I had a hard enough time getting focused enough to do my work today, and I'm just not seeing a point to doing any of it right now.

[patcharcana@furry.engineer]

@da_667 @cR0w I start a job on monday where I finally make market, the relief of which is undoing like three years of burnout awful quick.

So naturally, a guy I have zero influence over is going to balls it up for the 90-odd percent of us that aren't even in his jurisdiction and all the people who have solutions to this problem are doing nothing.

[nerdpr0f@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 @cR0w I spent the early afternoon intermittently prepping a lecture on Android-to-baseband communications/SMS encoding while also doomscrolling for any little bit of optimism. Kinda feels like the morning of the intro sequence of Fallout 4. The constant state of "need to act normal while freaking out" is... horrific.

[cr0w@infosec.exchange]

@rootwyrm @da_667

[kwayk42@sechtor.social]

@da_667 we're all in this together and we're all here if you need us

[theorangetheme@en.osm.town]

@da_667 @cR0w Kinda wish I'd started Prozac sooner than last week.

[da_667@infosec.exchange]

@kwayk42 dont worry, I'm still very motivated with my health, but... This man is actively losing his fucking marbles, and I'm finding it harder and harder to keep pretending this is normal.

[cr0w@infosec.exchange]

@theorangetheme @da_667 Nah, the closer you are to the start of the regimen, the more you notice the improvement.

[krypt3ia@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 There is none, other than perhaps self aggrandizement and grift. .... And he is cognitively impaired.

[kwayk42@sechtor.social]

@da_667 I don't, it's not normal. That doesn't mean I can't keep doing my part though. There's a world without him waiting and I'll still keep trying to build it until he's gone.

There's two wolves inside you (sorry about the transport accident)

[darkuncle@infosec.exchange]

@krypt3ia @da_667 when your entire persona is built on never ever admitting error or fault, it becomes both impossible to compromise but also impossible to learn or improve or change course, even when you might desperately want to. And I think when you've been living that lie this long, you believe it yourself and now nothing is your fault, everything is somebody else's, and somehow you are simultaneously in control of everything yet responsible for nothing.

[dio9sys@haunted.computer]

@rootwyrm @da_667 @cR0w

I learned today that nothing I do in my personal life can outweigh the consequences of my professional output, so I'm right there with you.

[cr0w@infosec.exchange]

@Dio9sys @rootwyrm @da_667 That's not true. I think you're carrying the output of your entire org and that's not fair to yourself.

[jackryder@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 This is normal and totally okay. The whole system seems to have gone insane.

At the moment all we can do is focus on what we can control, you know?

[cryptolek@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 can totally relate. Trying to brush away the waves of anxiety. But yeah, need to continue whatever silly things we do. Hugs to all!

[dio9sys@haunted.computer]

@cR0w @rootwyrm @da_667 Yeah, I need to step away from the internet for a bit. Just need to breath.

[faultcraft@infosec.exchange]

@da_667 feels like I'm barely struggle-bussing through this and it just keeps getting worse each day with no end in sight.

[musevg@23.social]

@da_667
(I only remember the movie vaguely, but)
This is "Wag the dog" on dementia.

(*sings* Albania, Albania...)