Does anyone have a screepcap or link saved of the interaction about a decade ago when a trans girl on reddit asked an adult cis man how often he thought about being a girl and his answer was something like "I dont think ive ever thought about that".
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@siege
I kind of want to hang an appendix onto this idea, that some of us pre-transition transes get ourselves into a position where we NEVER think of potentially being the gender we actually are.
Like, I never considered that I was a guy. I've got no memories or wanting to be one, or the thought crossing my mind that I wasn't actually a girl.
What I DO have, are memories of obsessively thinking of myself as a girl, in a "How do I live with being a woman? How do I do girl right?" kind of endless-angst way. As if any lapse in my vigilance would make all my gender evaporate, which would of course be terribly dangerous.
I posit that's another incredibly sad tell.
I think being an enby made it complicated too. Back in the day at least, there wasn't any alternative third thing to long to be.@valentine omg 🥺 maybe this is a common thing but i've never heard anyone but me describe it...during the last year before i finally came out, i found myself obsessed with the idea of what it meant for me to be "a good man" and how to be a man correctly.
it wasn't until i came to the conclusion that anything that makes a good man could apply to being a good woman that i was finally able to admit to myself that i was enby
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@agturcz @JoscelynTransient yeah, i do love to when i can sneak in a line of "cis guys dont ever make wishes to imagined beings / gods / demons / fairy godmothers / birthday cake candles to wake up as a woman, nor do they ever try to figure out how to ensure they have a dream where they turn into a woman either"
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eg: closeted trans girl who will state "im not sure if im trans, i dont hate being a guy, im not sure if i want to be a woman but its an idea that comes up sometimes"
translation: I would make a pact with an unholy demon to be turned into a girl right now, please, are you an unholy demon? please tell me you are
@siege they could be non-binary. I am. I have behaviors & likes that are gendered male BY PATRIARCHY. I prefer male style. It never felt taboo bc women could play with menswear. But I have a very feminine body I find sexy even to myself. I feel whole & balanced having the body I was born with & my mind with both socially constructed genders as just one ‘me’. But I did check in with myself & it’s how I know.
We may be queer and not fit into your binary about what trans is, but we are here. -
@agturcz @JoscelynTransient yeah, i do love to when i can sneak in a line of "cis guys dont ever make wishes to imagined beings / gods / demons / fairy godmothers / birthday cake candles to wake up as a woman, nor do they ever try to figure out how to ensure they have a dream where they turn into a woman either"
@siege @JoscelynTransient Yeah... Let me quote myself from some time ago:
"Where is the fucking religion when needed? I would literally sign my soul to the devil himself to become a woman."
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@siege @JoscelynTransient Yeah... Let me quote myself from some time ago:
"Where is the fucking religion when needed? I would literally sign my soul to the devil himself to become a woman."
@agturcz @JoscelynTransient Hey, hey Matrix, i will accept this simulated reality, i will not peak behind any curtains, i just need you give me this one delicious steak thing
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@agturcz @JoscelynTransient Hey, hey Matrix, i will accept this simulated reality, i will not peak behind any curtains, i just need you give me this one delicious steak thing
@siege @agturcz @JoscelynTransient Seriously, we are all such basic bitches about, too!
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obligatory "man who secretly thinks about being a woman" is not a type of man thats a trans woman in the closet and "woman who secretly thinks about being a man" is not a type of woman, thats a trans man in the closet.
@siege thread triggered by this seemingly evergreen Reddit post today?
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@siege thread triggered by this seemingly evergreen Reddit post today?
@EmilyEnough no! i actually try to wait a few days between the original post going up online somewhere and talking about it here.
it is just that we're all such basic bitches that its groundhog day everyday
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@EmilyEnough no! i actually try to wait a few days between the original post going up online somewhere and talking about it here.
it is just that we're all such basic bitches that its groundhog day everyday
@EmilyEnough also just read the reddit post and thank god i wasnt drinking anything or my monitor would be ruined.
HILARIOUS on point, no notes, 10/10 definitely a cis man.
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also theres all the stuff you cant convey they're not yet understanding like 3 hours after you accept yourself (oh ive always wanted this more than anything and the only person stopping me was myself), 3 days in (i was never a guy and had desperately tried to build an idea of my very-not-a-guy experience as a normal guy experience), and then 3 years in (this isnt a small part of me, this is a fundamental core thing that connects to almost every choice and part of me and has for all my life)
this was just brought to my attention so im including it for any cis people who have read any of this and are curious what sort of shape the people im talking about are in:
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this was just brought to my attention so im including it for any cis people who have read any of this and are curious what sort of shape the people im talking about are in:
@siege GIRL
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this was just brought to my attention so im including it for any cis people who have read any of this and are curious what sort of shape the people im talking about are in:
@siege OMFG! That's the most eggy thing I've ever read. Also, I could have written it 5 years ago.
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@siege GIRL
@siege literally teenager me thinking is completely normal and straight behavior to fantasize about kissing your girl friends in the lips
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this was just brought to my attention so im including it for any cis people who have read any of this and are curious what sort of shape the people im talking about are in:
@siege I don't experience any dysphoria...I just ache being in my body and living as a man and desperately wish to die so I could become a woman...definitely no dysphoria and absolutely normal cis feelings. yep.
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@siege I don't experience any dysphoria...I just ache being in my body and living as a man and desperately wish to die so I could become a woman...definitely no dysphoria and absolutely normal cis feelings. yep.
@JoscelynTransient like any warm blooded man i too yearn to be dead so i can live again as a cute girly girl uwu
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this was just brought to my attention so im including it for any cis people who have read any of this and are curious what sort of shape the people im talking about are in:
@siege The sentence-to-sentence juxtapositions are next level.
"it hurts"/"no pain"
"no desire for change"/"yearn [...] to be reborn"
I hope she figured herself out.
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@siege The sentence-to-sentence juxtapositions are next level.
"it hurts"/"no pain"
"no desire for change"/"yearn [...] to be reborn"
I hope she figured herself out.
@glowtayto hey look, i cant judge, i managed to have a whole heart to heart conversation with one of my closest friends where i came out as trans to them. And then a week later I realised i was trans.
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@glowtayto hey look, i cant judge, i managed to have a whole heart to heart conversation with one of my closest friends where i came out as trans to them. And then a week later I realised i was trans.
@siege Oh, no judgement. I used to fantasize about waking up one day having been somehow Freaky-Fridayed into a girl's body, so I feel her vibe. Yet it still took me until my late 30s to figure myself out.
More the English nerd in me being like, "Ah, masterful use of contrast to demonstrate a state of inner turmoil."
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@siege Oh, no judgement. I used to fantasize about waking up one day having been somehow Freaky-Fridayed into a girl's body, so I feel her vibe. Yet it still took me until my late 30s to figure myself out.
More the English nerd in me being like, "Ah, masterful use of contrast to demonstrate a state of inner turmoil."
@glowtayto i am quietly plotting a freaky-friday marathon on my discord movie night crew.
All films where people swap bodies or create a version of themselves in another body (preferably gender swapping) ala Virtual Sexuality
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eg: closeted trans girl who will state "im not sure if im trans, i dont hate being a guy, im not sure if i want to be a woman but its an idea that comes up sometimes"
translation: I would make a pact with an unholy demon to be turned into a girl right now, please, are you an unholy demon? please tell me you are
