For the first time in my life, I mowed the lawn! This may be a straightforward task for most people, but when you are plagued by self-doubt and anxiety, even simple things like this can be daunting. Will I ruin the lawn? Will I even be able to turn on the mower? Will it explode, causing a fire that spreads to our house? Will I have an accident that causes me to lose a few fingers? Worst of all, will the neighbours laugh at my shoddy work? Perfectionism and self-recrimination make tasks like this even more troubling. I fear ending up with below-par results that I'll beat myself up about for weeks on end. On this occasion, however, I cut myself some slack (as well as the lawn!). There were no catastriphic accidents. And a crowd of mocking neighbours did not appear. As feeble as it may sound, it was my small victory for the day. This occurred over a week ago; I've been basking in the glory ever since #neurodivergent #AuDHD #anxiety #ADHD #overthinking #ActuallyAutistic #neurospicy
