so I've had an e-ink tablet for a while now with this in mind.
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so I've had an e-ink tablet for a while now with this in mind. I've actually been keeping a twice-daily journal consistently for half a year at this point. it doesn't really do anything to help me now, but it'll be an interesting artifact in the future, I figure
but as a planner? nah. haven't even tried it yet, because it turns out I have no idea how to even do that, and seemingly every single resource on the entire internet is some nonsense garbage about following a system that feels gross to me, or is focused a lot more on the aesthetic than the function, and in both cases, it's like the concept of a planner is these people's entire personality. kind of like the wacky "I use obsidian and made a second brain zettelkasten digital garden that literally made me into an entire new person with only 725 simple steps and also lots of AI in 30 days" people
who wants to teach me about planners, but for real? I want to learn and try
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so I've had an e-ink tablet for a while now with this in mind. I've actually been keeping a twice-daily journal consistently for half a year at this point. it doesn't really do anything to help me now, but it'll be an interesting artifact in the future, I figure
but as a planner? nah. haven't even tried it yet, because it turns out I have no idea how to even do that, and seemingly every single resource on the entire internet is some nonsense garbage about following a system that feels gross to me, or is focused a lot more on the aesthetic than the function, and in both cases, it's like the concept of a planner is these people's entire personality. kind of like the wacky "I use obsidian and made a second brain zettelkasten digital garden that literally made me into an entire new person with only 725 simple steps and also lots of AI in 30 days" people
who wants to teach me about planners, but for real? I want to learn and try
RE: https://m.tripulse.link/notes/a4uqxztvrn3v1p3y@kit@m.tripulse.link I have a simple todolist in my obsidian daily template, which I fill first thing in the day. Something like this:
- [x] Daily
- [x] Fill the todo list 8:43 - 8:44
- [x] Read a book
- [ ] Work
- [x] Meetup 10:00 - 11:23
- [ ] Do something 9:00 -
- [ ] Go for a walk ~17:00-~18:00
Sometimes I track time or schedule by writing it next to the task. Recently started scheduling with ~ before time to indicate that this is just an estimate (though not sure if I will keep that).
Ofc I use task genius for fancy statuses which are not really useful and templater for filling reocurring tasks based on the day of the week, but I did not have that initally, for a few months it was just simple todo list. Works for me pretty well.
Important thing I've noticed is that you need to be pessimistic when planning in the morning, because it's easy to add something later in the day, if you have energy to do it, but it's quite annoying to fail a task you thought you could do... -
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@kit@m.tripulse.link I have a simple todolist in my obsidian daily template, which I fill first thing in the day. Something like this:
- [x] Daily
- [x] Fill the todo list 8:43 - 8:44
- [x] Read a book
- [ ] Work
- [x] Meetup 10:00 - 11:23
- [ ] Do something 9:00 -
- [ ] Go for a walk ~17:00-~18:00
Sometimes I track time or schedule by writing it next to the task. Recently started scheduling with ~ before time to indicate that this is just an estimate (though not sure if I will keep that).
Ofc I use task genius for fancy statuses which are not really useful and templater for filling reocurring tasks based on the day of the week, but I did not have that initally, for a few months it was just simple todo list. Works for me pretty well.
Important thing I've noticed is that you need to be pessimistic when planning in the morning, because it's easy to add something later in the day, if you have energy to do it, but it's quite annoying to fail a task you thought you could do...@araati@aethereal.me if it could be as simple as a todo list for me, I'd be thriving already, I fear. problem is that without fail, every time I've attempted the todo list approach, I simply do nothing, as usual, but then I feel worse at the end of my day than I would have felt without the list
for my journal, I write on one page upon getting out of bed, and on another page before going back to bed. for a while, I was starting the day by writing down one or two things I intended to accomplish that day, and I think I actually pulled it off once, but aside from that one time, all it did was make me feel worse, so now my wake-up entries are mostly "I slept for about this long, I feel good/bad," followed by some thoughts about something if I have any or a complaint about something going on if there's something to complain about, or the dreaded "no thoughts right now", and even though it annoys me that so many days have so few words starting them, I no longer feel worse than usual by the end
no, I need something with more structure, something that actually provides direction rather than just listing tasks, but the problem is I don't know what that looks like -
@araati@aethereal.me if it could be as simple as a todo list for me, I'd be thriving already, I fear. problem is that without fail, every time I've attempted the todo list approach, I simply do nothing, as usual, but then I feel worse at the end of my day than I would have felt without the list
for my journal, I write on one page upon getting out of bed, and on another page before going back to bed. for a while, I was starting the day by writing down one or two things I intended to accomplish that day, and I think I actually pulled it off once, but aside from that one time, all it did was make me feel worse, so now my wake-up entries are mostly "I slept for about this long, I feel good/bad," followed by some thoughts about something if I have any or a complaint about something going on if there's something to complain about, or the dreaded "no thoughts right now", and even though it annoys me that so many days have so few words starting them, I no longer feel worse than usual by the end
no, I need something with more structure, something that actually provides direction rather than just listing tasks, but the problem is I don't know what that looks like@kit@m.tripulse.link sometimes I have days or even weeks when I repeatedly fail, like, half of my list. And it feels bad. Which is why I said that being pessimistic about scheduling is good. Sometimes things just don't work, and that's alright...
Some time ago, I tried a more rigid structure... It was basically the same todo list, but each "task" was actually a 25min of pomodoro. 16 total, I believe. From 9 to 6. It worked for a month, because if you fail to follow through with such strict schedule (due to fatigue or having other responsibilities), it feels even worse than just todo list.
You can try scheduling in google calendar or similar. Time blocks of "I will try to do this thing at this specific time". Not focusing on getting things done, but just on being there. At least for me, it feels much easier to start if I don't have any evaluation criteria of how well I worked/spent my time. Being there is all that is required. Maybe that will work?
Also, journaling is cool, glad it works out for you. My journal is not very helpful at the moment (because it's very hard for me to be introspective, it's painful), but it's definitely interesting to read notes from a few years ago and notice patterns. -
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@kit@m.tripulse.link sometimes I have days or even weeks when I repeatedly fail, like, half of my list. And it feels bad. Which is why I said that being pessimistic about scheduling is good. Sometimes things just don't work, and that's alright...
Some time ago, I tried a more rigid structure... It was basically the same todo list, but each "task" was actually a 25min of pomodoro. 16 total, I believe. From 9 to 6. It worked for a month, because if you fail to follow through with such strict schedule (due to fatigue or having other responsibilities), it feels even worse than just todo list.
You can try scheduling in google calendar or similar. Time blocks of "I will try to do this thing at this specific time". Not focusing on getting things done, but just on being there. At least for me, it feels much easier to start if I don't have any evaluation criteria of how well I worked/spent my time. Being there is all that is required. Maybe that will work?
Also, journaling is cool, glad it works out for you. My journal is not very helpful at the moment (because it's very hard for me to be introspective, it's painful), but it's definitely interesting to read notes from a few years ago and notice patterns.@araati@aethereal.me I have a vague memory of trying to block out time on a calendar like that several years ago, but no memory of how it worked out, though clearly I didn't stick with it. maybe I should try that again, though it's much harder now since I have zero control over my sleep patterns, and I honestly don't really have a grasp on time at all anymore. pomodoro is lethal poison to me, I can't switch modes that fast, but maybe I could try the same kind of thing but with hour long time blocks, maybe that could be a decent compromise between calendar blocking and pomodoro to accommodate my busted internal clock. though that would also compound the bad feelings of failure if I end up just sitting there for an hour
accepting failure is important, and I know it, I try to be kind to myself and have been working hard on that especially in the past year and a bit. but it's really, really hard to just keep accepting it when it's been months or years. I finished my first fiction novel in november(?) and haven't written another word since, even though there's a writing contest going on right now that I'd really like to enter because I feel like I have a real shot at winning a prize in it, and the deadline is approaching fast. then of course, I haven't even touched fl studio since... 2021? there are definitely bigger problems going on here than just a lack of structure and direction, but I feel like it's a feedback loop and fixing anything, even for a short while, could break the loop, hence my interest in figuring this out
my relationship with rigidity is a strange one. I somehow both love it and hate it. I feel like a free spirit who thrives on fluidity and going with the flow, but the times in my life where I was creatively healthiest was when I had a rigid schedule imposed upon me by someone else, and tragically, both of those situations hurt me mentally (because I'm either not doing anything or getting overwhelmed and sleep deprived)
that's the only reason I keep journaling, I think. it feels fluid, but it's actually rigid. it's just something consistent, and the autistic brain in me needs some consistency somewhere, no matter how little. just like how when I started using a sleep tracker years ago, I simply never stopped, and miss maybe one night a month at most to this day, even though I know there's no point in it because I can't use the data for anything -
so I've had an e-ink tablet for a while now with this in mind. I've actually been keeping a twice-daily journal consistently for half a year at this point. it doesn't really do anything to help me now, but it'll be an interesting artifact in the future, I figure
but as a planner? nah. haven't even tried it yet, because it turns out I have no idea how to even do that, and seemingly every single resource on the entire internet is some nonsense garbage about following a system that feels gross to me, or is focused a lot more on the aesthetic than the function, and in both cases, it's like the concept of a planner is these people's entire personality. kind of like the wacky "I use obsidian and made a second brain zettelkasten digital garden that literally made me into an entire new person with only 725 simple steps and also lots of AI in 30 days" people
who wants to teach me about planners, but for real? I want to learn and try
RE: https://m.tripulse.link/notes/a4uqxztvrn3v1p3yI got a suggestion off-platform to try a gratitude journal and let me just say: absolutely not
if it works for you, that's great, more power to you, ignore me, unclick the content warning and be on your way, because you aren't going to like what I have to say, and I'm going to be so honest with you, I will not be at all receptive to explanations or justifications of the concept
so with that said
for me, a gratitude journal is the most forced, vapid, empty, toxic positivity quackery. I can't stand them, and I won't try them
I can tell you all the things I'm grateful for that matter right here and now and it would only be a few dozen words, if that. if you want me to stretch so hard I'm expressing gratitude about seeing a bug, or making a meal, or breathing, I'm going to shut your mouth for you to give myself something to really be grateful for
this practice does not make me feel better. the only thing a gratitude journal accomplishes for me is to remind me of all the bad things in my life that are out of my control. gratitude journals are naive escapism. they are systematized denial by omission
in my argument with this person, they tried to tell me that it's about awareness. making yourself more aware of the world around you, and of yourself, that kind of thing. and if that's really the point, how in the world is that supposed to help me when I am so hyper-aware of everything all the time that it is itself a big problem? am I supposed to be grateful for my own self-awareness when that very awareness causes me so much anguish and anxiety that I could have instead been blissfully ignorant of? am I supposed to want to be more aware of the world outside than I already am, when as I have complained about at length many times over the years (and this person has read those complaints!), my entire living situation is broken and corrupt from every angle, getting constantly and rapidly worse, and none of it is within my power to influence?
begone with your deeply unserious "gratitude" garbage, your understanding of mental health is as deep as an MBTI test
