Super long kind of introduction:
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Super long kind of introduction:
1) the first story my biological family was telling about me was that when I was just few days old, the chabad rabbi demanded to bring me from israel to New York because he wanted to see me.
2) one of my older brothers (i am the 5th in a family of 12 brothers and sisters) told me that when I was about 4 years old, I started shouting repeatedly in the synagogue: I am not a friend of god and im not afraid of god.
3) in 1989, when I was 8 years old, my father wrote a letter to the rabbi (in found it few years ago in a community archive) telling him that I am questioning some contradictions in the old testament (bible) and that i have "audacity and boldness" and he is asking the rabbi blessing that those characteristics on me will be channel "for positive things".
4) at the age of 16 I got caught with a man and been sent to a massive conversion therapy I wouldn't wish to my worst enemy. It didnt really work.
5) a bit before the age of 19, i was told that my time to marry in an arranged marriage arrived. It didn't match my plans so I ended up banned from my home, disowned by my family and community.
6) homeless for a but more than a year, somehow found myself working in the israeli parliament, got fed up and joined the popular Palestinian struggle against Israel's occupation (specifically the building of the wall stealing agriculture lands), got arrested and injured plenty, lost love to Israel's brutality and literally escaped from there to Europe.
7) lived about half of my life as a proud gay bottom, playing sometime with borderline gender queer, wearing dresses and stretching some roles but still a bearded bear loved to be fucked by bears.
trauma sent me to a soul digging with self and friends but also with a psychiatrist and psychologic. Turns out I was wrong and I am trans. Started HRT 121 days ago.9) if you would ask me until last week my answer was that I am attracted only to men but someone entered my life and shook it. This someone won't fulfill my current dreams but I am not what I thought before we met.
10) currently living in Barcelona. Unemployed officially but working for 8 hours during the weekend as kind of security in a queer bar. I am big and can scare off some who can disturb our peace + it helps financing my dresses shopping addiction.
11) all my life people thought that I am brave or unafraid, maybe because I am direct, loud, in-your-face when it comes to authority or adversaries, smiling and bubbly when it comes to friendly places. Truth is that I feel shy and afraid and confused and lost most of the time. But I am working on it.
(if u read until here - wow! and thank you for giving me your time
)Pictures:
1) me with the chabad rabbi in brooklyn , NYC
2) me trying to block israeli soldier shooting at a Palestinian protest
3) me because why not?
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Super long kind of introduction:
1) the first story my biological family was telling about me was that when I was just few days old, the chabad rabbi demanded to bring me from israel to New York because he wanted to see me.
2) one of my older brothers (i am the 5th in a family of 12 brothers and sisters) told me that when I was about 4 years old, I started shouting repeatedly in the synagogue: I am not a friend of god and im not afraid of god.
3) in 1989, when I was 8 years old, my father wrote a letter to the rabbi (in found it few years ago in a community archive) telling him that I am questioning some contradictions in the old testament (bible) and that i have "audacity and boldness" and he is asking the rabbi blessing that those characteristics on me will be channel "for positive things".
4) at the age of 16 I got caught with a man and been sent to a massive conversion therapy I wouldn't wish to my worst enemy. It didnt really work.
5) a bit before the age of 19, i was told that my time to marry in an arranged marriage arrived. It didn't match my plans so I ended up banned from my home, disowned by my family and community.
6) homeless for a but more than a year, somehow found myself working in the israeli parliament, got fed up and joined the popular Palestinian struggle against Israel's occupation (specifically the building of the wall stealing agriculture lands), got arrested and injured plenty, lost love to Israel's brutality and literally escaped from there to Europe.
7) lived about half of my life as a proud gay bottom, playing sometime with borderline gender queer, wearing dresses and stretching some roles but still a bearded bear loved to be fucked by bears.
trauma sent me to a soul digging with self and friends but also with a psychiatrist and psychologic. Turns out I was wrong and I am trans. Started HRT 121 days ago.9) if you would ask me until last week my answer was that I am attracted only to men but someone entered my life and shook it. This someone won't fulfill my current dreams but I am not what I thought before we met.
10) currently living in Barcelona. Unemployed officially but working for 8 hours during the weekend as kind of security in a queer bar. I am big and can scare off some who can disturb our peace + it helps financing my dresses shopping addiction.
11) all my life people thought that I am brave or unafraid, maybe because I am direct, loud, in-your-face when it comes to authority or adversaries, smiling and bubbly when it comes to friendly places. Truth is that I feel shy and afraid and confused and lost most of the time. But I am working on it.
(if u read until here - wow! and thank you for giving me your time
)Pictures:
1) me with the chabad rabbi in brooklyn , NYC
2) me trying to block israeli soldier shooting at a Palestinian protest
3) me because why not?@Liza welcome! You've lived an exciting life. I hope it stays exciting in a good way.
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