When you were born treading water, how could you know what a relief it would be to stand upon land?
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When you were born treading water, how could you know what a relief it would be to stand upon land?
It is striking how every step I take in transition feels small, reversible in anticipation. Sure, I can try Estrogen, see how it feels. Maybe I’ll wear some different clothes for a day. I can always just stop. And maybe they are small steps, but they invariably reveal themselves as not reversible. Each small step is off of a cliff, and the journey back would be arduous and I don’t think I can make it.
I look at the pain it would cause me to go back and marvel: that was the pain I was carrying with me every day, unaware, as my “normal”. Everyone must feel this way, because I feel this way. I didn’t know how deep the waters in which I swam to stay alive were; how could I, when I have never stood upon dry land?
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When you were born treading water, how could you know what a relief it would be to stand upon land?
It is striking how every step I take in transition feels small, reversible in anticipation. Sure, I can try Estrogen, see how it feels. Maybe I’ll wear some different clothes for a day. I can always just stop. And maybe they are small steps, but they invariably reveal themselves as not reversible. Each small step is off of a cliff, and the journey back would be arduous and I don’t think I can make it.
I look at the pain it would cause me to go back and marvel: that was the pain I was carrying with me every day, unaware, as my “normal”. Everyone must feel this way, because I feel this way. I didn’t know how deep the waters in which I swam to stay alive were; how could I, when I have never stood upon dry land?
Yes it’s an ocean and you’re swimming but also it’s a cliff and I don’t care I think in metaphors and sometimes they mix
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Yes it’s an ocean and you’re swimming but also it’s a cliff and I don’t care I think in metaphors and sometimes they mix
@what Blowing off my English class lessons about how I’m allowed to use grammar and metaphor has vastly improved my writing.
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