I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding.

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 16:57:32 GMT

lunadragofelis@void.lgbt — Thu, 14 May 2026 16:57:32 GMT

@hsza @flamecat I don't know how my body and brain will respond to removing the drug after over 15 years of being on it or similar drugs, and if anything goes wrong (i.e. I have a meltdown) I fear getting blamed and institutionalized because I didn't follow doctor's instructions. Also I don't have any lower-dose pills at home for proper tapering beyond halving them.

I'd rather be dead than forced into a psych ward, even only temporarily.

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 16:52:49 GMT

hsza@social.tudbut.de — Thu, 14 May 2026 16:52:49 GMT

@LunaDragofelis @flamecat can you pretend to take the drug but actually just dump it

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 16:50:24 GMT

lunadragofelis@void.lgbt — Thu, 14 May 2026 16:50:24 GMT

@burnoutqueen @flamecat my main issue isn't bulge (my genitals are thankfully rather small), but height, body hair and weight.

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 16:45:02 GMT

lunadragofelis@void.lgbt — Thu, 14 May 2026 16:45:02 GMT

@flamecat I have read it now. The thing that most puts me off from the "plausibly deniable uniform" (t-shirt, jeans, shoes but from the women's section) in that thread is that it seems like a massive pain in the ass to even find anything that my monstrosity of a body will physically fit into. Let alone look good in.

Shoe size EU 47 (equivalent to 14.5 US women's, according to the one online calculator I could find that didn't separate women's size tables and cut them off at EU 42), 188 cm (6'3) height and 155 kg (340 lbs) weight (in part due to risperidone, a psycho drug I'm made to take, even though I think its benefits for autism are very dubious, and it causes both weight gain and increased appetite).

The few women's shirts from mom that I tried have a quite low cut neck, which then exposes the ugly chest hair of my body (my boobs would be pretty if they weren't hairy like a fucking gorilla). And I know about the bullshit that's pockets on women's pants and I don't really want to subject myself to that, as I currently do make good use of my pockets.

I hate the irreversible effects of male puberty so much.

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 12:52:20 GMT

burnoutqueen@todon.nl — Thu, 14 May 2026 12:52:20 GMT

@flamecat @LunaDragofelis I just wear a dress because it accommodates my bits fine

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 10:49:31 GMT

lunadragofelis@void.lgbt — Thu, 14 May 2026 10:49:31 GMT

@flamecat Thank you! I bookmarked it to read it later.

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 10:47:50 GMT

flamecat@bark.lgbt — Thu, 14 May 2026 10:47:50 GMT

@LunaDragofelis While I don't agree with everything written in this thread this might still be a good starting point:
https://blackqueer.life/@FinalGirl/116568493088042785

Reply to I'm scared to do anything other than boymoding. on Thu, 14 May 2026 09:59:40 GMT

lunadragofelis@void.lgbt — Thu, 14 May 2026 09:59:40 GMT

This is an invitation for advice on how to girlmode (especially if fat and tall)