I have no idea anymore how to meet people. In my 50s, and been alone now for far too long.

Do get back to us if you figure it out. I'm certain many of us would like to know.

Welp, you're definitely not alone in this!

I have no clue how to do this anymore. It seems impossible and I'm not even sure it's something that I could achieve any longer, even if it somehow dropped into my lap.

I used to be good at it? I think? I used to be able to find and develop relationships and keep them for however long? Not anymore. I can't imagine having somebody that intimately in my life again.

Sometimes I miss it like crazy, but most of the time I can't imagine what it would look like now. I feel too broken and too weird and too old. At least my dogs like me.

Under not going against yourself goes also not trying to shove yourself into boxes that are not you. Speaking as someone who's shoved themself in all kinds of boxes and situations and whatnot just to find out I don't belong there. What has worked for me, to some extent, has been to find something I want to do regardless who's there doing it with me. That way the doing part is interesting to me and there's no pressure on the people part. I'm still lonely and unpartnered, but especially the latter one is now more by choice than forced on me.

The same would apply to romantic relationships, had I not realized I'm pretty deep in the aroace end of things. But still, a partner status would be a much higher bar for me than it seems to be for the neuromajority. So why relationships seem easier to them is because... they are easier to them. And also, they are better at pretending, maybe things are hard for them too (a sidetrack, with a content warning, Henry Rollins' "I know you" is about loneliness and alienation and has this line about that "...they sure do a good job of hiding it")

Your situation probably is different, and you have your own things. Not necessarily something wrong, just something different.